Angst

(If you hate hearing/seeing people rage/rant, maybe you shouldnt read this)

Things I really can't stand:

1) People who spit on the ground, on grass patches, anywhere AND EVERYWHERE. It's just so annoying and disgusting like what happened to "clean and green singapore?!?!?!? Maybe it's just me, but everytime I see someone spit on the ground, I feel like telling the person off. Ok no don't underestimate me because I've done so before. And there was once when I saw this guy spitting at the sand play area where kids usually build their mini sandcastles at bedok reservoir. LIKE DO YOU EXPECT THOSE KIDS TO USE YOUR SALIVA INSTEAD OF WATER TO BUILD THEIR SANDCASTLES?!?? It's unattractive to spit ok, very unattractive. I would slap you if I know that you spit in public places whenever you feel like it.

2) People who "reserve" their seats with packs of tissue paper. Ok honestly, I don't give a shit about how much those packs of tissue paper costed you. If I see them on the table in places like hawker centres or fast food restaurants, thanks for the tissue you just saved me a few cents/dollars. Like seriously, what if I were to throw a packet of tissue paper into your house and come back 15mins later? If you wanna reserve seats whatsoever, leave a goddamn human there. Anyone, like a kid or an elderly or maybe even you. If you happen to be alone, then look for a seat after you've bought your food. Oh and please, don't EVER leave your handbag on the table to reserve that seat. Too rich already right.

3) People who don't join the queue for buses at the interchange but instead wait at the side and when the bus comes, they rush in first. WHERE ARE YOUR MANNERS?!

4) Senior citizens who think that they can cut queues just because they're older. Not trying to be rude here but, honestly, everyone should be fair when it comes to queuing up. I don't care if you're 3 or 30 or 83 or whatsoever, you're gonna queue up. And no you're not gonna tell me "I only have one item to buy, can I pay first?" NO NO NO NO NO.

5) Whenever I take the bus home after a run, and people look at me like as if I'm carrying a bomb or something. Just because I'm sweaty I can't take the bus?! Oh I'm sorry I didn't know that, the next time someone gives me the weird stare when I take the bus after my run, I won't hesitate to fall on the person so that he/she will be covered in MY sweat too.

6) When I wear my scarf out (the one for religious purposes) and someone asks me "wah you not hot ah?" NO BITCH IM FABULOUS AND THERE'S AIRCON IN MY SCARF.

7) People who blast their music in buses. I just can't stand it.

8) When girls are upset/down or maybe they just keep quiet, and some guys would be like "is it the time of the month?" LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHAT TIME OF THE MONTH? Or when they say things like "are you seeing red?" "Is it pms?" "did you stain your skirt?" WHAT THE HECK MAN DOES IT MEAN THAT EVERYTIME IM ANGRY WITH SOMETHING OR SOMEONE IM ON MY PERIOD?! Stop, ok. Stop.

9) When I'm queuing up for the toilet/cubicle, and someone else asks me "can I use the toilet first? very urgent leh" then what about me?! What if I told you my pee is on the verge of flowing out already?

10) People who shout/talk very loudly to attract attention. I just can't.

TGIF

(the date written for all the posts on my blog is screwed up)
It's Friday fridaaaaaaayyyyyy anyways no school today /silently thanks temasek/ and I'm gonna meet my darling Xin Xuan soon at 11 for lunch because she's bored and I'm bored and we need to grab lunch and some stuffs. So yesterday, I found out that gong cha, koi, each a cup and another bubble tea outlet (which I can't rmmb bcos I can't be bothered to, I'm sorry heh) has certified that their pearls are safe for consumption!!!! I was so happy I started smiling at the cashier she probably thought I was a creep for a while. And I bought donut for dinner since I was too lazy to eat proper food but I shall stuff myself with food later on bcos I skipped breakfast too. No, I'm not on a diet I'm just trying to eat lesser (that's still not a diet) but I figured that the more I eat, the more I'll (shit) and I hate the school's toilet so I'd rather not. Furthermore, I'll have more time to study if I eat less (chey step) and I've decided to not DSA!!!! I just wanna prove myself by trying to enter a JC (hopefully if not then poly ah) but my raw score so yep no DSA it shall be. And I kinda dislike shooting lol. Went for a run this morning (like an hour ago?) and dunman sec was having their cross country there! But they ran the opposite direction so I couldn't (try) to compete with anyone.....but yesterday I ran 2.5km with my super fast dad but after that I gave up so I slowed down and he ran ahead of me but it was a good experience cos my dad is like rly rly rly fast although he keeps saying that he's slow (liar) haha so his pace is quite fast and consistent so ----achievement unlocked---- June hols kinda started alrdy but there's school nothing new cos it's our Os this year and we have to work hard yada yada yada but no hols for me for the first two weeks thanks for sciences and coursework and my beloved amath we're gonna have an amath camp how exciting is that man I'm not kidding :) Have a great day everyone!!

idk

call us. no I kid bye have a good night (to people who will actually read this crap:* )

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"You don't have to be in track and field or cross country to be a runner. As long as you run, you're a runner."

Down

These few days have been really crappy. Got back my results:
English- 59 (C5)
E Math- 86 (A1)
Physics/Chem- 72 (A2)
Higher malay- 53 (C6)
A Math- 69.44444444 (B3....imaginary A2)
SS + Elective Lit- 43 (E8)
DNT- ???? (But I failed theory 48/100)

My L1R5 is really shitty though haha not expecting much, just probably not firing squad. Hopefully my journal portion for dnt will pull up my grade for dnt!! Failed the theory paper (as usual) but my journal seems pretty decent? We'll just see haha. ANYWAYS MY LOVE FOR 4/7 HAS GROWN SO MUCH BECAUSE WE FAILED SS TOGETHER I LOVE ALL OF YOU HAHA the whole class got f9 except Matthew who managed a d7 haha thanks though matthew, for pulling up our class msg from 9 to 8.95 we love you x) Ahahaha lit did wonders to my humanities grade though from a 9 to an 8. That's quite good alrdy actually considering the fact that I've been stagnant on a 9 for combined humanities for the past idk how long??? And I missed a freaking A2 by 0.6% I know this is rather inappropriate to complain about bcos I know some people didnt pass but idk I just feel really upset with myself I had sooooo many careless errors throughout the whole paper but paper2 was rather pleasing mhmm :)

That aside! I've been feeling really low for the past week. Oh and my left eye had been twitching alot lately. I googled it and experts say that if your left eye twitches, you're either really stressed and you wanna cry. So I cried to my heart's content yesterday for no apparent reason actually bcos I wanted my eye to stop twitching how stupid was that bcos my left eye is still twitching and no I'm not gonna cry anymore!!! And on a side note, I hate getting emotionally attached to someone (tryna act cool here and use a diff phrase/word/idk) Like I've been thinking alot and honestly, who in the right mind would fall for me???? Like srsly I'm a lazy pig who doesn't even wanna study and I'm just like "I'm hungry" or "I'm sleepy" or "I'm bored" 98% of the time everyone gets bored of me all the time heheheh so maybe I shld give up hope on everything. No not everything I meant like I shldnt like anyone anymore? This is stupid. I'm sleepy (mhmm) gdnight imaginary people who read this

Silent nights

One more paper to go and I'm done with this mid years! Kinda want to celebrate after the papers but I don't feel like watching a movie or stuffing myself with food to 'celebrate'. I've got so many plans for the June hols but I've decided that I should study during the hols. I even came up with a short (and incomplete) bucket list. Haha kinda early I know but I should start now since I'm still young (chey)
Paper ends at 1.30 tomorrow and I feel like doing something really fun bcos I actually intend to skip tuition i need a break man. But I figured that no one would actually bother to listen to the plans that I have maybe bcos they're just too lame or embarrassing idk. Sigh I really miss the times in sec1 when I could just text farisha to ask if she was free the next day or even just have impromptu trips to the supermarket with her after school to get some food and drinks and just go crazy. And she didnt judge me when I got high haha it was really fun back then. Good things really don't last I guess. Now, people (or even my friends, close friends) would just be like "crazy" when I tell them my plans to relax and just let loose. They'll judge me and laugh and say stuff like "idk you". It's sad haha I've actually spent a few nights pondering about this but maybe it's just me. I'm just not normal and there are just so many things I wanna do but hey, "girls can dream" x) So idk what I wanna do tomorrow after the exams. I'm tired of the old "lets watch a movie" or "lets eat" thing. I'll just see how things go. Have a great evening/night :)

13/5

today's the 13th of may. And my register number is 13. I'm just sayin haha I realised that while I was writing my name class index number date on my exam papers.

So anyways I'm really happy now bcos today's the first time I don't feel like crap after the invigilator said "put your pens down" the emath paper2 was quite do-able so I'm really hoping to get an A1 for it!! Afterall if it's not my math subjects that I can get an A for, then I'm gonna die for this mid years.

I think my blog's like really boring hahaha oh and I wore my lucky socks today it's been with me since sec1 although it's slightly torn already but it's like my good luck charm (heh don't judge) have a good day (everyone)!!!!!!! :)

exams

"munirah are you studying?"
"yes I am"

Bamz

What are the O levels man. I screwed up my physics and lit papers now I'm so demoralized.

Been feeling like shit since I got home. But I deserve it, serves me right. I barely studied for the physics paper, let alone lit. My mind went blank during the physics paper, forgot all the formulas that I supposedly memorized like an hour before the paper? I shouldn't even be complaining right now. "You reap what you sow" is that saying even right? Idk man, e math paper on next Monday. 2.5 freaking hours how to not fall asleep :( Ahh anyways on the bright side, I went to parkway with Xin Xuan after school to eat and talk and walk around whatsoever haha it was fun although we walked around the whole mall for like 2-3 hours but we didnt get anything till the very last 10mins before we headed home. That made up for the shit that happened earlier on. Gdnight :)

hey

and happy birthday to me

Bleargh

Mental breakdown again. Was going through physics and suddenly I was like "ok screw everything I'm done" haha how hopeless am I. Exam period, ups and downs. I think I'm gonna flunk this mid years. My mentality is horrible, I'm forever like ~it's just the mid years~ can't wait for everything to be over. Fell sick over the weekend and my voice is just-
Anyways, idk what the point of this blog is anymore. Haha to anyone reading this (if there are actually any) have a good night you're amazing x